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I seem to have failed again at finishing something productive yesterday. I can hear the music but then sometimes when i come back to it it's like what was i thinking. This sounds HORRIBLE... anyway... guess that just means i need to pick myself up and try again :) Started working some more on the choral piece. I love the human voice i have a lot of ideas i want to use but i'm not sure whether or not i'll finish this piece in time for my friends concert. even if i can i need to make the parts easy enough to be learned by the end of this month... OH CRAP!!! i don;t have very much time. I need to do this. well i need to get off of here so i can take a quick shower and be on my way. should see you all soon with some music :D Power to the language of love :) OH and i finally have a mac...i mean it's "ancient" Ibook G4 1.2 gHz, 256mb of RAM (upgradeable to 1.25gb) 27gb of actual memory space, and running OSX 10.4.11 using Garageband 2.0.2 haha. I really miss Logic lol. One day soon. if anyone knows of any jobs lemme know :)

Slowly but surely

So today i looked at my account on youtube and i now have 4 subscribers up from 2 lol i know them all lol but still haha. I was reading something earlier and it kinda got me thin kin a little bit. I mean it's late so i'm really thinkin about ti as much as i could lol. But what i got out of it was they were questioning their existence and the purpose of family. Life is defined by death is a basic theme that i got from it. In a sense yes this is true the length of life is simply the time that death is absent. Once we die we start eternity with God or in another place. What's the point of doing anything? I've wondered that before. But i've recently realized that if I'm going to be here rather than waste away i'd rather do something good with my life and bring joy to others and work at Being what God would have me be. In regards to family... whether blood or bond in the end after all your possessions have faded and crumbled away the only thing that is going to be left is the love of people (family) and the love of God. family is important... I don't know i'm rambling... All i want to do in life really is spread love but with that i know that i'll be presented with ample opportunity to hate and hold grudges. Music is flowing in me... i can feel it. i feel a physical moving in me when i get lost in music when i get lost in worship. I need to sleep but never let your mouth cease to worship God. Though the mouths around you may be silent and the jaws may be clamped never let this world take God away from you.

Time for a change

Well my sleeping habits still leave a lot to be desired... That is going to change soon. Don't really have much to write tonight. I am slowly beginning to grow in my music again. :) I need to start working on a piece that i'm supposed to have debut in a concert coming up. I LOVE choral music. So i can't wait to start classes at Citrus this fall. I look forward to getting a jump on this recording deal and getting back to APU soon. I realized that i'll probably go with that bible minor considering i can get it done in the same amount of time as my degree would take. not staying a semester longer than needed lol TOO expensive haha. But yeah we'll see. I know that i'll eventually lead worship somewhere when the time is right. Well seeing as i would like to sleep i'm going to go now and i guess as i write more music i'll write about that and my inspiration. Maybe one day when i actually have some content worth reading lol I can make a book out of this blog. Still can't wait to get my mic. Once i get gigs and start learning about the trade of audio engineering i'll have A LOT more to write about. I'm considering changing my major to theory or composing or the likes if it'll get me out sooner lol. But i'll probably just stick with my beloved music ed degree :). Night all

It's been a while

It's 1:46 in the morning and i'm still awake. I'll start going to bed earlier soon. But i'm listening to choir music right now on youtube and i found a piece by Z. Randall Stroope. Absolutely beautiful piece "I Am Not Yours". Stroope is a wonderful composer and he is one of my influences. I love choral music. I love the music that can be made with an instrument that is a part of us. No other instrument has it's intimacy and intricacies. The voice is such an amazing instrument and a gift to us all. There isn't much more to say tonight other than music heals and right now i need some healing and God is working in me. I want to make music that speaks to something in you and calls forth life. No matter what i may be talking about. I love you all have a wonderful evening and keep each other in your prayers. :)