Sex and Real Life...

So a friend of mine recently posted about sex on her tumbler. Here is a link to it. It's good post that just tells it like it is. ...contemplating on whether or not to post this... it's late... it may not make sense... I mean it's something we all deal with. As a Christian, and a man who wants to save himself for his wife, I'm waiting until I've made my commitment to her for the rest of my life. Now everything, literally everything almost has sexual innuendo to it. I've seen ads for workboots... workboots people... that were sex driven. I mean they really aren't making this thing easy. We aren't being told how to deal with our sex-drive in a healthy matter. Just being told to wait... and wait... Not only am I tired of not knowing really what to do while I'm waiting. I've read christian literature about the damaging effects of pornography and masturbation, premarital sex, oral sex, and sexual acts. Yes I've been given good info on why certain behaviors are bad and i understand why sex being saved solely for the marriage bed is important but still nothing on the in between. I understand not now and it'll be amazing when i get there... but the transit... WUT THE EFF. I'm not sure If I'm the only one but my sense of intimacy has been affected already. For someone whose primary love language is touch sometimes i have a hard time just being myself with friends in that respect for fear of, 1) how it may be received, 2) how my body may react to affection, the very affection I long for, and 3) lack of of knowing how to differentiate affection between friends with more than friends. I really want to be held and hold a member of the opposite sex. In actuality I also wouldn't mind a good snuggle with a dude. I mean i hate how society says that men must be strong all the time and be hard as rock and only eat raw meat with chainsaws and machetes... I'll eat raw fish with sticks... is that close enough. I mean look at some of the most magnificent mountains in the world. They are big and strong but they are adorned with nature that is so beautiful and lush that it's just ridiculous. :) I see nothing weak about a man who doesn't mind being the one held by his woman or a female friend. In the same respect I see nothing "gay" about being held by another dude. Men can be just as nurturing as women. :) I know I ramble and sometimes draw a line then stop midway start another one then come back and finish the other line... This is the very reason why I should not write late at night... So the gist of it all is... sex is prominent in our everyday lives. Wut the eff do we as young Christians in transit to marriage? I ALWAYS want to hug. And i ramble... At least i'm holding true to the blog title. I am basically rambling and offering the portion of my thoughts that actually make it into words... so if there are holes i'm sorry... :P Still contemplating posting this... this may have been a bad idea...