The Original Post Is Gone....

I had something typed but i erased it. She is in my heart and will remain as long as there is breathe in my lungs and she wants to be in my embrace.

No more phone blogging...

No more phone blogs i say because they always get screwed up one way or another... oh well. goign to do some recording tomorrow for the album :) Going to record Johnny and Eliana and Another song that has a working title. Then that leaves on more and the EP will be complete. Stay tuned and hopefully not too soon after the full length album will come out :)

That last post is basically how my heart feels right now. Pray with me ya'll it means alot. Music is the food of love. I'm in love and i want to give her music.

I kind of want to get a frappucino with eight shots of espresso...

Sorry i haven't blogged in a while. Going through some ish. More to come soon any suggestions on what to blog? Thinking about creating a vent blog. Thoughts?

New Music...

I realized as i was typing the header for this post that any music really that i bring to you of my own at this point will be new haha. Once I get my songs copyrighted I'll share them with you all :) Currently I basically have the EP done. Right now I anticipate to have 4 songs on the EP. I plan to start recording it mid to late July and release it sometime early to mid September. :) I have quite a bit to work on musically. The English language looks so weird sometimes... anywho. Thank you all for reading and going along with the change in intent for this blog. Check out my youtube. Youtube. :)

Duckie outie

Campaign Done...

So last night the campaign ended and the goal was not met sadly. But I've grown from this and learned some valuable lessons. :) I know that I need to first produce something of my own that will show people that I'm actually doing something with the music that is mine and not just covering other peoples. Otherwise they think i'm just some dude trying to live out a fantasy. I may have been expecting a bit much for fundraising before I make a debut haha but i will make it and give the people something to listen to until the main event comes out :) Thanks to all of you who read this blog from time to time. Please feel free to follow it and share it with your friends. I'll be having some give-aways once I reach 50 followers. Right now I'm at 2 hahahaha. But yeah :) Love you all.]

Ducky outie.

24 Hours Remain

So here I am sitting in my room listening to some great Dubstep :) with 24 Hours left in the Kickstarter Skrillex is basically beast mad for real. :) So for all of you who haven't yet go check out the Kickstarter and see what's up :). The music is coming along great so far just need to buckle down and get some writing done and map the whole thing out. I have some ideas of how i want to do various songs just a matter of what I think will sound the best and translate the best. Once I get the money I'll be able to get everything squared to where I want it for this current project. I plan to start recording everything by mid to late July. :) Oh man do I need new strings haha. These strings right now are so gone... I mean I'll probably need to have an actual funeral for them when the new strings get put on. And again Skrillex is beast, makes me want to produce some dubstep like yes. I can hear it in my head but i don't have the plugins and software needed to get that GRIMEY!!! lol well God bless.

Ducky out.

Working on music...

I look forward to the day when i can just work on music all day and get payed to do it. Make a living off of it. I can't wait to finish these last few songs and put this album out for you all over the course of these next few months. It will be out by September and i'll have some shows before hand and i'll have an album release show. If any of you would like to host me for a home show in the near future just let me know :) I really want to do a house show soon maybe even a small apartment show. That would be super chill. I'll have some demos up soon. I'll want to get your feedback on which song should wait until the full length album. I already have an idea but i will take your suggestions into consideration :) Thanks for reading. I'll have some new covers up soon. I've been working on a few. I should have one up in the next week or so. :) laters peeps

Ducky out.

I've decided...

This is now officially the rant blog. the sribblins of the life of a songster. I continually find myself thrust headlong into this rabbit hole of feelings for women; and just as in the remake of Alice in Wonderland. Every time i hit the bottom with a loud thud... then sit up thinking it's over only to find that room is upside down and i'm on the ceiling about to come cra.... *THUD* I think i broke something... Anywho. i just need to ramble rant tonight i guess. Any feedback is welcome as always. I'm just tired of feeling this way about women only to find that it just isn't going to happen, or knowing if she's someone i should fight for. out of all that i have fallen for there are only 2 that i would be willing to fight for. The current i have a connection that i can feel that i might not necessarily be able to see but i know it's there. From day one of the official meet and beginning of the friendship i knew this one was different from a lot of others. We're are going to be a part of each others lives for a very long time. I don't know if these feelings are legitimate or just my craving for intimacy... I've never been this attached to a woman my age not related directly to me. I'm not sure if i'm confusing my need to continue to nurture this friendship or if I am actually falling for her. We have some major differences that normally would be a deal breaker. If I was interested in any other woman i know i'd be like eff that, but with her i'm like well maybe. Regardless of what happens i've already given her a part of me and attached myself to her. We're in this for the long haul. Well i should sleep have a lot to do tomorrow.

This little ducky is outie.

My Album

So about 15 Days ago I launched a campaign to raise the funds for my album 'Windows'. There will be a link at the end of the post where you can check it out. I need the money so that I can get all of my songs copyrighted, have the cd duplicated, mail the cd out to people, get the equipment to record and treat my room. I have a demo of 'Johnny' up on Myspace right now to give you a taste of what's on the album. A link for that too. Will post more soon :)

Myspace

Kickstarter-'Windows'

Results and updates

So the results of chance being my lyricist were interesting. Looks weird but it lends itself well to a beatnik style of delivery. I will explain more about how I got this and will continue to do more of these but the parameters will be much stricter :P

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Let's see if you can figure out what I did lol If you can I will literally BAKE you cookies and send them to you or deliver them to you depending on your distance.

In other news I now have quite a few songs finished and working more on completing lyrics for the rest i have about 4 songs i'm actively working on aside from the ones i have finished. i recently got out the sax and clarinet again. I've missed them soooo much. Glad to be playing again. Maybe i'll play them some at a future show. Looping anyone lol :) Well i must bid you all farewell :) Thanks for reading come back for more info about the music.

Music...

So I'm sitting in a friends apartment listening to a dubstep remix of Whip My Hair. I really enjoy some good dubstep. I look forward to having an EP out soon like in the next 3 months hopefully. :) I will be playing a show around the time of my birthday. I am determined to make that happen this year. I have some songs to write and start writing. I am actually about to literally let one write itself. Chance is going to be my lyricist... stay tuned for results

Realizations about... things...

Realized tonight why my blogs don't seem to have direction. I have no direction. I have alot of thoughts of what i would like to do. Nice thoughts that make me sound like i have a race to run. But really i'm sitting on the side of Sunset watching the cars go by imagining my self running. Different color shorts, shoes, etc. Just watching a race in my head. When really i'm just watching cars pass me by. In the morning I will have a direction. Ready to train to run a race. or just jump in. There's no real training for life. Fish don't get a warm up for their swim... neither do I. Well I'm continually praying with you my dear readers. And I would love to have you pray with me.

My Blogs don't make sense...

So here I am sitting in a room with people. Crazy events happen in lives that intersect mine. Not really here to scribble eloquence but rather just scribble. Little tidbits from the mind of a blooming writer. Her line intersected mine and for a second a dimension unknown to me came about and I saw her. Not realizing what had happened until seconds after our departure I felt my heart race and confusion begin to set in... What just happened? I have no idea. Did my heart decide while i was sleeping that i would display my affections whenever i saw here face? It was like my heart was on autopilot... May my heart lead me around the world and right to her.

Right now i'm sitting in a recording sesh i want to do this with my life :)

Silence...

Silence isn't golden...
Silence is black... void of aural recognition
A string of hollow words and lips moving at the speed of stillness
Spiraling down into this abyss of black...
Noise calls for me...
The delicate reverberating hum of white noise on these blood stained walls
Many times i've fallen down this tunnel
Face against the wall
Hands against the stone
Silence is peace
Silence is hell
Silence can never be captured
Only lived...
The silence between our eyes
The tension between our lips
Black noise in crowded bakery
People moving through time and space leaving the present behind constantly living in them moment after
Nothing exists but our eyes
Ears anticipating nothing
SILENCE...
I yell...
Breaking the silence with silence...
Spiraling down I hit the ground level with such force the pain i suppress becomes silence that kills me
My ears bleed for the silence that cut me down
Everything stops and the eyes of the world re focused on me
Ears anticipating my next words
Leaving them in suspense forever for i now take a vow of silence
Silence isn't golden...
It's tongue can cut deep
You stood there in silence as i was beat and the rope was cut...
A break in the silence could have saved my face
Could have saved me from a fall...
Where ultimately silence killed me...
The door slams and glass shatters...
Silence and barriers broken
Spun round faster than sound...
Now stopped silence eludes me and white noise crashes in on me
Silence i beg you to let me lead so you'll always be there when i stop...
Silence you're not golden...
But a shadow

Love and broken bones...

13...
13 stairs later a broken wrist and elbow
Eloquence eludes me...
Comparisons between love gone awry and bones splintered by concrete...
A heart broken is like stress fracture on your heel...
Continuing to work away at your nerve with a constant biting pain until you're numb...
A heart torn from the chest is like 13 stairs...
The initial pain present and overwhelming...
But once set and cast at least you can see the progression and healing...
Stress fractures continue to come back at the most obscene of times to greet...
Again eloquence eludes me...
If i reacquainted myself with 13 at least i'd feel something...
I wouldn't feel so alone.

I'm a little bit confused about life right now. Well the love and relationships period aspect of it all. Interactions with the opposite sex. You know?

WOW...

Ok so the last time i posted anything was the 12th of December last year. Happy New New Year and Merry Christmas and all that jazz a month after the fact lol. Well i've really been up to nothing productive. But I am working on some new songs i've finished one but i'm not sure if i want to share it with the world. I'm also not sure if that's just now i don't want to or ever period... Maybe i'll edit the song to make it more to the tune of what actually happened or something. I don't know. Anywho.

I do plan to have enough songs and covers polished by June to put on a small show. Probably at a coffee house or something. I want to go to an open mic before that though to give some time on stage before actually having a show. Haha. And i'll have some "Bedroom Sessions" posted on myspace and facebook. Haha. That's what my first album will be lol sessions from my room and my little baby studio. :P Thanks to all who read. I know it's really boring right now lol but it'll get more interesting i promise. ^_^ Well off to conquer what's left of the day :D