This is now officially the rant blog. the sribblins of the life of a songster. I continually find myself thrust headlong into this rabbit hole of feelings for women; and just as in the remake of Alice in Wonderland. Every time i hit the bottom with a loud thud... then sit up thinking it's over only to find that room is upside down and i'm on the ceiling about to come cra.... *THUD* I think i broke something... Anywho. i just need to ramble rant tonight i guess. Any feedback is welcome as always. I'm just tired of feeling this way about women only to find that it just isn't going to happen, or knowing if she's someone i should fight for. out of all that i have fallen for there are only 2 that i would be willing to fight for. The current i have a connection that i can feel that i might not necessarily be able to see but i know it's there. From day one of the official meet and beginning of the friendship i knew this one was different from a lot of others. We're are going to be a part of each others lives for a very long time. I don't know if these feelings are legitimate or just my craving for intimacy... I've never been this attached to a woman my age not related directly to me. I'm not sure if i'm confusing my need to continue to nurture this friendship or if I am actually falling for her. We have some major differences that normally would be a deal breaker. If I was interested in any other woman i know i'd be like eff that, but with her i'm like well maybe. Regardless of what happens i've already given her a part of me and attached myself to her. We're in this for the long haul. Well i should sleep have a lot to do tomorrow.
This little ducky is outie.
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