My Blogs don't make sense...

So here I am sitting in a room with people. Crazy events happen in lives that intersect mine. Not really here to scribble eloquence but rather just scribble. Little tidbits from the mind of a blooming writer. Her line intersected mine and for a second a dimension unknown to me came about and I saw her. Not realizing what had happened until seconds after our departure I felt my heart race and confusion begin to set in... What just happened? I have no idea. Did my heart decide while i was sleeping that i would display my affections whenever i saw here face? It was like my heart was on autopilot... May my heart lead me around the world and right to her.

Right now i'm sitting in a recording sesh i want to do this with my life :)

Silence...

Silence isn't golden...
Silence is black... void of aural recognition
A string of hollow words and lips moving at the speed of stillness
Spiraling down into this abyss of black...
Noise calls for me...
The delicate reverberating hum of white noise on these blood stained walls
Many times i've fallen down this tunnel
Face against the wall
Hands against the stone
Silence is peace
Silence is hell
Silence can never be captured
Only lived...
The silence between our eyes
The tension between our lips
Black noise in crowded bakery
People moving through time and space leaving the present behind constantly living in them moment after
Nothing exists but our eyes
Ears anticipating nothing
SILENCE...
I yell...
Breaking the silence with silence...
Spiraling down I hit the ground level with such force the pain i suppress becomes silence that kills me
My ears bleed for the silence that cut me down
Everything stops and the eyes of the world re focused on me
Ears anticipating my next words
Leaving them in suspense forever for i now take a vow of silence
Silence isn't golden...
It's tongue can cut deep
You stood there in silence as i was beat and the rope was cut...
A break in the silence could have saved my face
Could have saved me from a fall...
Where ultimately silence killed me...
The door slams and glass shatters...
Silence and barriers broken
Spun round faster than sound...
Now stopped silence eludes me and white noise crashes in on me
Silence i beg you to let me lead so you'll always be there when i stop...
Silence you're not golden...
But a shadow

Love and broken bones...

13...
13 stairs later a broken wrist and elbow
Eloquence eludes me...
Comparisons between love gone awry and bones splintered by concrete...
A heart broken is like stress fracture on your heel...
Continuing to work away at your nerve with a constant biting pain until you're numb...
A heart torn from the chest is like 13 stairs...
The initial pain present and overwhelming...
But once set and cast at least you can see the progression and healing...
Stress fractures continue to come back at the most obscene of times to greet...
Again eloquence eludes me...
If i reacquainted myself with 13 at least i'd feel something...
I wouldn't feel so alone.

I'm a little bit confused about life right now. Well the love and relationships period aspect of it all. Interactions with the opposite sex. You know?

WOW...

Ok so the last time i posted anything was the 12th of December last year. Happy New New Year and Merry Christmas and all that jazz a month after the fact lol. Well i've really been up to nothing productive. But I am working on some new songs i've finished one but i'm not sure if i want to share it with the world. I'm also not sure if that's just now i don't want to or ever period... Maybe i'll edit the song to make it more to the tune of what actually happened or something. I don't know. Anywho.

I do plan to have enough songs and covers polished by June to put on a small show. Probably at a coffee house or something. I want to go to an open mic before that though to give some time on stage before actually having a show. Haha. And i'll have some "Bedroom Sessions" posted on myspace and facebook. Haha. That's what my first album will be lol sessions from my room and my little baby studio. :P Thanks to all who read. I know it's really boring right now lol but it'll get more interesting i promise. ^_^ Well off to conquer what's left of the day :D

Getting ready to carol. It's kinda warm to be wearing a cloak lol just sayin'. Lol

Contemplations

Well i'm sitting here at 4 effing 30 listening the wonderful sounds of Regina. Working on some new music. I seem to have found a muse. I think lol. I'm inspired but at the same time i find it difficult to finish some of it. But i'm inspired none the less. Well i shojld probablt go to sleep now i have class in the morning. I don't really want to go but wut ev. Once classes are all done i want to clean and gut my room and only work on music and art related things. Music, painting, crochet, etc. HAHA. Yeah... well i'm too tired to type anything else coherent lol so g'night world. I love you all.

I believe love conquers all ^_^ yup yup!

Technology bites hard sometimes

My mac is still down which means no recording for this young lad. :( And now i want to throw my phone through a wall and put the foot through my dell's motherboard. The stupid thing inverted the screen for some unknown reason. Just surfin the net then all of a sudden black screen then everything comes back and the color isn't as sharp and the picture is up-side freakin down. Well my motivation to do anything is kinda dead. wutever i'm going to go finish a song now...

Just a little update...

So i'm using the old dell... lol YAY!!! (no...) And that whole bit of nonsense not liking to blog from computers that aren't mine... load of crock but at the same time still a bit true lol. Just doesn't feel the same. At least not from a computer connected to me in some way like through a friend or a school haha. Anywho...

My mac is down not sure for how long but that kinda makes recording anything rather difficult if not impossible lol because i don't have the software on this dell (like it could handle it anyway) and the dell isn't exactly portable so even if i did it wouldn't really matter. Wouldn't use it anyway because this computer is super loud... to me anyway haha. So now i'm working on lyrics and writing music out by hand need to really get on working on carols so i can have something to bring to the table. Well goodnight all. And feedback is greatly accepted, warranted, and received by any and all who read :) Thank you. I love you people of the world :D

So my computer is down. It may be a little while until i can update i don't like blogging from computers that aren't mine :( i should have backed up my hd.

Realizations...

I'm reminded of something that i say and will stand by until the day that I die.

Without love there is no life.

God loves us therefore we exist.

As a people we need to love more. The world is already filled with hate and rage. Now it's time for us to make it better. To hold the world to a higher standard by standing up for what is right and never backing down or abandoning true love, mercy, forgiveness, willingness to help out your fellow man, and most importantly each other.

We need love to live. Love is at the very basis of life and creation. The most magnificent achievements that we as men accomplish are driven by love for that aspect of life the vast majority of the time. As you love more and become more genuine there will be more hurt in your life but the love that you experience will be like no other. I just want to encourage all of you to love like there is no tomorrow because tomorrow isn't promised. I am also challenging myself to change the way i think and carry out my life. :) We can do this. I love you all.

About life...

When i put up this blog i didn't want it to be a place where i put my feelings and shared with the world what i'm dealing with internally. Didn't want it to be a vent page. But then i read the title again. These are songster scribblins. I sing about life. I decided to look the word up and was like... whoa... i called myself this without really knowing it was an actual defined word.
songster:definition


Merriam Webster defines a songster as:
1: one that sings with skill
2: songbook

Synonyms: caroler (or caroller), singer, vocalist, vocalizer, voice
Related Words: belter; crooner, harmonizer, hummer, warbler, yodeler; serenader; cantor, chanter, chorister; chansonnier; chanteuse, songstress; bard, troubador


Wikipedia has a good starting point in explaining what a songster is. check out some of the songsters they list. I want to be a part of history in music. Not for the glory and all that but for the experience. Becoming a part of history means i'm going to have some good times touch some good people and have a great time doing it. I want to spread music. Soon i will be in a band. I'm not going to let it become this thing we talk about for years and then never actually do. I want to live more than the dream... i want to live my destiny.

This is just a test

Hello all. This is just a test to see how one would embed an audio file lol i think i'll have to make a little cheap movie with a picture lol :P let's try it nope i'll just use limelinx lol. I guess i'll just put the link in here or I'll do both and you let me know which you prefer :D I'm going to put up a piece of work by Jane Lui :) A cover of Just The Way You Are. :) here it is :)did it work? i hope so

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I just got rid of the link and soon will take this test down :)

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video replaced and not taking this down lol please forgive the craziness this is why i shouldn't be permitted to stay up until 3:30 lol

Nothing Yet

I've been using the mic and i like it alot. Nothing to post yet soon though I'll have up some covers and whatnot. I haven't been in the best frame of mind place. I'm going to make it a goal to record at least one song/ thing/ series of things a week. It may be an actual cover of a song or it could be a voice demo reel type thing. Maybe even an actual audition for a voice-over spot. You never know. I'm going to record nature one day and have that be ambient sound in the back of a track. :) There is a certain specific sound i could record all day long :) I would do it happily. Oh and you all just lost the game... lol. Sorry it was bound to happen sooner or later. Right now I'm listening to Pomplamoose. So good. Listening to their version of O Come All Ye Faithful. Makes me want to do a Christmas Album haha :) Well i must be off.

Short post

I GOT THE CABLE!!!!!! Let's do some damage lol. And by damage i mean the kind that's good haha. I gots ta go now... I'm bout to have me some fun :) I just need my headphones now.

hey hey hey

Ello everybody. So it's official. I have my mic now, ram for the mac, and a better pair of headphones on the way :) i got the models mixed up i have the ksm27 as opposed to the ksm32 but the one i have is still legit and super versatile. i still need a cable for the mic so i can get some stuff up soon. i should have a cable on Monday :) I had a little recording sesh with my cousin in the bathroom haha. had everything set up and there wasn't much space lol the bathroom is kinda narrow. i plan on building a little mock vocal booth in a corner in my room lol. Consisting of cardboard, sheets, and that cheap bead foam you get at walmart or wherever lol. I'm hungry... i think i'll go make some oatmeal now. :)

Blog

Ok so a friend of mine has agreed to be a benefactor of sorts lol. So i'll have my mic and everythingish i need to get some real stuff going in the right direction in the next week. Looking forward to gettting so quality recordings and learning how to use a Really nice condenser properly lol. Going to rerecord my first hit among my friends haha, Word To Ya Motha. :P REALLY looking forward to getting the mic and a decent pair of headphones that can last my rugged travel life for more than a month haha or just don't plain suck... Anyway once i figure out how to post music in the blog like embed it i'll do it and you can hear what i'm up to haha. probably just use limelinx haha.well night all i'm quite tired only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night. But apparentlyi need to start getting used to that. In my field that's normal lol. Goodnight world. Goodnight beautiful people. Oh and i really want to learn Korean still :)

Blah Blah

I seem to have failed again at finishing something productive yesterday. I can hear the music but then sometimes when i come back to it it's like what was i thinking. This sounds HORRIBLE... anyway... guess that just means i need to pick myself up and try again :) Started working some more on the choral piece. I love the human voice i have a lot of ideas i want to use but i'm not sure whether or not i'll finish this piece in time for my friends concert. even if i can i need to make the parts easy enough to be learned by the end of this month... OH CRAP!!! i don;t have very much time. I need to do this. well i need to get off of here so i can take a quick shower and be on my way. should see you all soon with some music :D Power to the language of love :) OH and i finally have a mac...i mean it's "ancient" Ibook G4 1.2 gHz, 256mb of RAM (upgradeable to 1.25gb) 27gb of actual memory space, and running OSX 10.4.11 using Garageband 2.0.2 haha. I really miss Logic lol. One day soon. if anyone knows of any jobs lemme know :)